My title
has been taken from the title of a collection of columns by a late and
irascible journalist named Mike Royko. The interesting context of doubt: doubt
standing in the place of certainty, Royko's certainty that his observations
about Chicago city politics and life in general are right on the mark. This,
perhaps, serves to point us in the right direction with Thomas and this whole
episode in some closed upper room in Jerusalem. For to get anywhere with this
story, one absolutely must begin with the understanding that doubt is not the
opposite of faith. The opposite of faith is indifference, as Archbishop Desmond
Tutu and Elie Wiesel have reminded us.
Doubt,
writes Frederick Beuchner, is the ants in the pants of faith. Doubt keeps faith
awake and moving. Whether your faith is that Jesus is the son of God or that he
is not, if you don't have any doubts, says Beuchner, you are either kidding
yourself or asleep. We as humans wrestle with doubt and our ability to stick
with our faith. Thomas is not a doubter. Thomas is a true believer. He has made
that clear earlier in John's Gospel. It is Thomas who, when Jesus insists on
going to Judea, declares, "Let us also go with him that we may die with
him." And it is Thomas who makes the first explicit acknowledgment that
Jesus is God: "My Lord and my God!"
This
loyal believer who has given us the expression "Doubting Thomas"
deserves to be remembered better than this. He did not refuse belief and wanted
to believe, but did not dare without further evidence. Because of his belief,
loyalty, and goodwill, Jesus gives him a sign after refusing to do so for the
Pharisees. Please note that the sign did not create faith in Thomas but it
released the faith that was in him already. Thomas is the patron saint of all
who believe and still want to see for themselves. Do we want to see Jesus? Do we want to be
like Thomas and see for ourselves? I can
tell you the world wants to see Jesus. And the world looks to us, his body, the
church, for a sign of some identifying marks that say, "My lord and my
God!"
Thomas
knows exactly what to look for as the identifying marks because any God apart
from the Wounded One is no God at all. Thomas knows this. We know this. But it
is so easy to forget. And so easy to turn our heads and look away from the
wounds. It is so important for us to know that Jesus is the way. This God,
Jesus shares our sufferings, grief, and pain and is with us every step of the
way. That is where we can see him. So, when we are confronted with the loss of
a loved one, Jesus is here in the midst of it. When we were plunged into the
depths of national fear like Floods and Fires, we know that Jesus was in the
midst of it with us. As we face the anxieties of further problems we can know
that Jesus is in the midst of it. As we, or others we know, face the daily
darkness of depression, disease, loneliness, racism, ethnic hatred, and
religious intolerance, we know that Jesus is in the midst of it.
Any one
of these situations could be enough to cause some doubt in our resurrection
faith. Any one of these situations could be enough to send us to God asking for
a sign. Our wounds are very much on the surface every day. Anyone can come into
a church and look at around and see our grief, our pain, and our suffering.
Anyone can come in to our churches nearly any Sunday at any service and see
people reaching out to Jesus for healing of whatever it is that hurts: mind,
spirit or body, in themselves or loved ones. People come to us with a desire to
see Jesus. For, in truth, the hands we extend in love and care for others are
his hands. If people cannot see Jesus here and in us, where else can they
honestly turn? Without the insistence and testimony of Thomas, all of it would
be more than we could bear. For those unable to be with us sharing as part of
the Christian community , we must bring Jesus to them, and if only for that
moment, make the whole body of Christ, this sacred mystery the church, whole
and united and reconciled and healed present.
Jesus joins us wherever we are. He comes back
to show us that he has survived and risen above the grief and sorrow and pain
of it all. He comes back to show us that
he is the one who transforms our wounds into new life. He comes back to lift us
up, so we might show forth in our lives and in our very hands like his what we
profess by faith. Then our doubts are once again relieved. Then we again might
join with Thomas in proclaiming, "My Lord, and my God!" In our belief
we then might have life, true life, and abundant life, in his name. " Hold
Jesus in your hands. Feel him breathe on you the Spirit breath of God. And then
be sent into the world so others might see him. All of us are sent-to show our
hands. So others will see the wounds. So others will know him as we know him:
My Lord, and my God!
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