Over
the years for Christians, even those on the fringe of Christianity, Lent has
often been seen as a time of intense self-reflection. But self-reflection
without understanding the power that God holds to make something beautiful of
our clay vessels, our little lives, is to defy the power of the God of Love.
According to the psalmist, in Psalm 23 set for this week, the valley of the
shadow of death is where God is. It is in the presence of our enemies that a
table is set, and, deep in our own muck, we are led beside the still waters.
According
to the book of Samuel, again one of the scriptures for this week in our
lectionary, God picks David, a young child, to fight Goliath and to be king of
all Israel. And through that kingship, which has its times of horror and times
of victory, God makes David the king Israel needed for the moment. In addition,
in the Gospel of John, the blind man suffers consistently throughout his life
because people look at him as deficient, as sinful, as someone not worthy.
Self-reflection in all these cases would bring us to a place of despair, but in
the hands of a good and merciful God? Something beautiful happens.
As
human beings, we look at vulnerabilities as weaknesses, as those places that
need to be thrown out or erased, denied, or refused. But it’s in our
weakness and vulnerabilities that God reveals God’s self. It was in the choice
of the smallest and youngest son that God revealed the king. It was in the
valley of the shadow of death and in the presence of enemies that the poet knew
that his God anointed him with the most fragrant oil and his cup ran over. And
it was in the man’s blindness that the Holy One’s spit and a little mud helped
him see in John 9.
But
we live in a world where the expectation is that we are always and forever at
the top of our game or we are punished. We live in a world where admitting our
weakness is to admit defeat and to encourage harassment. We are in a world
where we hide our hurt or we will be further damaged. We live in a world where
panic and greed control which we have seen in the hoarding as people panic
about the Covid-19 sickness the world is facing. And yet our God says, “It’s in
our vulnerabilities that we find the grace” and that finding grace and mercy is
the ultimate goal of human existence within the Christian faith.
John
Wesley hoped we would become perfected but being perfected meant perfected in
receiving and showing mercy, not in our perfection in a particular moral code
or a sense of our own “doing it right.” That is the transformative power
of the Christian faith. The ability to receive and swim through the muddy and
spit-filled complexity of life with a merciful, loving creator.
And
now a comment on the reading from John 9. The blind man could have been a
“seeing” man—it is not the healing of the man’s blindness that is the ultimate
experience Jesus hoped to address. The ultimate experience is God making us
whole; God’s work is in making us whole. The one who was blind from birth was
surprised by grace (there’s that word again), surprised by Jesus, shockingly
loved and chosen, and his vulnerability became the place where the good news
that he, too, was deeply loved was made manifest. To God, we are all the
beloved. Each one of us is both beloved by God and the beloved to each other.
It’s just sometimes we don’t recognise this or choose not to recognise this.
The
real injury in the blind man’s life was the criticism from society, the damning
from the religious leaders, and the selling out of his parents. The ultimate holy experience, and one that is
throughout scripture, is to experience God as one who does not see as mortals
see—who does not see us in all the ways others have judged us, raced us, held
us down, and been aggressively jealous or arrogant toward us. Yet it is facing
those judgments, oppressions, imprisonments, jealousies, and arrogances, and
reflecting and focusing on God’s love, grace, and mercy that will heal us.
The
ultimate is that we are all yet beautiful, full, alive, living this life with
the Spirit of God deep in our hearts. The ultimate is that God chose to birth
us from love and mercy, continues to love and give us mercy every day of our
lives, and, at the end of our life, will receive us into arms of love and
mercy. The love of God is the grace given to us as we are created before we
were born and continues with us throughout our lives.
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